Wrote this yesterday, just now getting it posted.
Today is my 50th birthday. I was born on Sunday, October 27, 1974 at 4:03 AM.
I have been thinking about the concept of how to show up for an event. Like, what energy am I bringing to it.
How am I going to show up to 50? I mean, I guess I already have. As I am writing this, I am sitting at the dinner table of my family cabin in Habersham County, Georgia. I spent the week working my job-job, but also working to clear Mom's house up in preparation for an estate sale. And I took Mom to two doctor's appointments and out to vote. Then on Friday, we came here. The cabin is its own project. We are well aware of the chinks in the armor here. We used this trip to winterize the cabin - namely draining the water pump and adding anti-freeze to the toilet. But packing up linens, flipping the mattresses to prevent rodentia from making their own beds. Clearing out the fridge, the basics.
So, the lead-up to the day itself has been industrious. Today, we drive home and we'll have dinner and cake with my friend Jim. Tomorrow is reserved as a "me" day. I plan some sort of self-care activity. Maybe a facial, or some sort of pedicure. And then I need to do a Trader Joe's run. And then laundry and prep for a short work week. Honestly, I just want a little time alone.
So it feels like the way I'm showing up is sleeves rolled up, ready to do the hard work, but mindful of taking time to enjoy the good things in life, and specifically remembering to take care of myself so that I can effectively take care of the people around me.
This is 50.
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