I am putting this into writing because I want to come back to it at some point. This will be intentionally vague.
Basically, I don't like having to watch myself with people I should be able to be authentic with.
I don't like being told what to say and not to say.
I hate that I feel like I missed out on something incredibly essential. I have some serious longing for a metaphorical train ride I never took.
And one that I am no longer in queue for.
I wish I had more, but also less.
And I need to do the work. It's time.
I also need to invest my energy carefully.
Basically, I am a little blue. I don't want to unpack it now, so this is a little dogear.
I'll work through it later.
Basically, I don't like having to watch myself with people I should be able to be authentic with.
I don't like being told what to say and not to say.
I hate that I feel like I missed out on something incredibly essential. I have some serious longing for a metaphorical train ride I never took.
And one that I am no longer in queue for.
I wish I had more, but also less.
And I need to do the work. It's time.
I also need to invest my energy carefully.
Basically, I am a little blue. I don't want to unpack it now, so this is a little dogear.
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Dog ears are the best fidget spinners ever. |
I'll work through it later.
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