Friends, I'm going to admit something here.
I am really, really hurting today.
I didn't talk much about the election, or the state of our country, or my views because I think they're pretty obvious. I'm an overweight, middle-aged, liberal female atheist living in the Southeastern US, so of course, I feel a little disenfranchised.
Now, that said, I'm also a college educated, heterosexual, middle class white person, so, how disenfranchised am I, really?
My vote in the Primary Election went to Bernie Sanders because I really believed in him and what he wanted to do. He didn't win. Now, I do think that the Hillary camp was a powerful regime, but I think they won fair and square.
I watched the Republican candidates closely because so many of them are hardcore evangelicals, and that scares me. At the age of 42, I have good enough healthcare and am of an advanced enough age that abortion rights don't affect me personally, but I have a lot of lady friends who deserve the option to make that decision for themselves. I have a good job that provides excellent health benefits, so the Affordable Care Act doesn't really affect me personally, but I have a lot of friends who have benefitted from access to care. I'm married to a man, so Gay Marriage rights don't have much to do with me, except that I have a bunch of gay friends. Some are even married. Some of them may want kids. I have, tops, fifty years of life left - so climate change isn't that big of a threat to me - but I have a nephew, and I know plenty of kids who deserve a clean, healthy planet with plants and animals and air to breathe. I haven't experienced racism. I have experience some mild sexism, but nothing like a lot of my peers. I am, by my own standards, living a good, good life. I have it SO. EASY.
Last night, I watched, against all odds, as Donald Trump became our president-elect. And as much as I hate to say it, it wasn't rigged. Unless you think that the electoral college is complete and utter bullshit, in which case, yeah - there's that. Apparently, Secretary Clinton won the popular vote.
What I feel more than anything is guilt. Should I have canvassed for her? Should I have given money? Should I have not been such a chickenshit and told people on social media that I was with her?
That's what I keep asking myself.
I also ask... now what? Will the economy tank? Will I lose my job? Will someone try and assassinate him? And if they do, is Mike Pence really a better option (the answer to that one is easy: no!) .
Since I'm onsite with customers, I feel incredibly lost and alone. I called Matt last night, have texted friends, called Mom this morning - but I need to get home. Be with my husband, my dog. Get my things in order to settle in for the long, hard road ahead.
And, OK - I know a lot of my friends overseas aren't huge on Hillary, but they are appalled that my country elected Trump. Personally, I'm just stunned.
And I don't know what to do. All I can think is... now what?
I'll let you know if I figure it out.
I am really, really hurting today.
I didn't talk much about the election, or the state of our country, or my views because I think they're pretty obvious. I'm an overweight, middle-aged, liberal female atheist living in the Southeastern US, so of course, I feel a little disenfranchised.
Now, that said, I'm also a college educated, heterosexual, middle class white person, so, how disenfranchised am I, really?
My vote in the Primary Election went to Bernie Sanders because I really believed in him and what he wanted to do. He didn't win. Now, I do think that the Hillary camp was a powerful regime, but I think they won fair and square.
I watched the Republican candidates closely because so many of them are hardcore evangelicals, and that scares me. At the age of 42, I have good enough healthcare and am of an advanced enough age that abortion rights don't affect me personally, but I have a lot of lady friends who deserve the option to make that decision for themselves. I have a good job that provides excellent health benefits, so the Affordable Care Act doesn't really affect me personally, but I have a lot of friends who have benefitted from access to care. I'm married to a man, so Gay Marriage rights don't have much to do with me, except that I have a bunch of gay friends. Some are even married. Some of them may want kids. I have, tops, fifty years of life left - so climate change isn't that big of a threat to me - but I have a nephew, and I know plenty of kids who deserve a clean, healthy planet with plants and animals and air to breathe. I haven't experienced racism. I have experience some mild sexism, but nothing like a lot of my peers. I am, by my own standards, living a good, good life. I have it SO. EASY.
Last night, I watched, against all odds, as Donald Trump became our president-elect. And as much as I hate to say it, it wasn't rigged. Unless you think that the electoral college is complete and utter bullshit, in which case, yeah - there's that. Apparently, Secretary Clinton won the popular vote.
What I feel more than anything is guilt. Should I have canvassed for her? Should I have given money? Should I have not been such a chickenshit and told people on social media that I was with her?
That's what I keep asking myself.
I also ask... now what? Will the economy tank? Will I lose my job? Will someone try and assassinate him? And if they do, is Mike Pence really a better option (the answer to that one is easy: no!) .
Since I'm onsite with customers, I feel incredibly lost and alone. I called Matt last night, have texted friends, called Mom this morning - but I need to get home. Be with my husband, my dog. Get my things in order to settle in for the long, hard road ahead.
And, OK - I know a lot of my friends overseas aren't huge on Hillary, but they are appalled that my country elected Trump. Personally, I'm just stunned.
And I don't know what to do. All I can think is... now what?
I'll let you know if I figure it out.
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