I've been posting recently about troubling or distressing dreams. But here's the thing.
Two nights in a row, I've had great dreams.
Night before last, I woke myself up laughing. Not the first time it's happened, but the first time in a long time. I don't recall exactly what made me laugh, but there were some kids putting on a skit to fund their invention - something like a Cat Aquarium.
Again, what exactly made me laugh in the dream hard enough that I woke up laughing, who knows? More to the point, who cares? I remember thinking, "If I can still wake up laughing, I'm not broken!" And for someone who felt a little broken. Ok, a lot broken, it was a revelations.
Guess what? I'm far from broken.
Last night, I had a dream that some family members were having a party, and as part of it, they were presenting a key moment in the lives of everyone in the family. The first two were a recalling of times that the members fell in love. They came to the presentation about me, and it was recalling how socially awkward I was in 5th grade. And I stopped them and protested that they had chosen something bad for me. And I started explaining how things got better. And I at some point broke into a song: "I know that I am friendly, and I know that I am kind. I know that I am funny, and I know that I am happy. And I don't need anybody else to tell me that." And as the song ended, my alarm went off.
I am so, so far from broken.
ae
Two nights in a row, I've had great dreams.
Night before last, I woke myself up laughing. Not the first time it's happened, but the first time in a long time. I don't recall exactly what made me laugh, but there were some kids putting on a skit to fund their invention - something like a Cat Aquarium.
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| Not even close, Google Images. |
Again, what exactly made me laugh in the dream hard enough that I woke up laughing, who knows? More to the point, who cares? I remember thinking, "If I can still wake up laughing, I'm not broken!" And for someone who felt a little broken. Ok, a lot broken, it was a revelations.
Guess what? I'm far from broken.
Last night, I had a dream that some family members were having a party, and as part of it, they were presenting a key moment in the lives of everyone in the family. The first two were a recalling of times that the members fell in love. They came to the presentation about me, and it was recalling how socially awkward I was in 5th grade. And I stopped them and protested that they had chosen something bad for me. And I started explaining how things got better. And I at some point broke into a song: "I know that I am friendly, and I know that I am kind. I know that I am funny, and I know that I am happy. And I don't need anybody else to tell me that." And as the song ended, my alarm went off.
I am so, so far from broken.
ae
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