Color me happy!

I have a box of crayons at my desk.

I go with the 48 box because it's enough, but not too much. 

And as you can see, they've gotten some use.  Not tons of use, but you'd be surprised how they'll come in handy from time to time.

So, I'll give you an analogy.  Let's use the box of crayons to represent my emotional state.

When Lola died, some of the color went out of my world.  For demonstrative purposes, Lola is represented here as green:

Functional, but definitely something is missing.

And then Dad died, and I lost another color (let's go with orange):

But Piper has helped get me back to a nearly full box:

There are two shades  I won't get back.  But since the world contains more shades that even the largest box of crayons, I think I'm going to be OK.